Essential Oils, Health, Self-Discovery

Learning to LOVE My Body and Myself

I never loved my body. I was always finding something wrong with it. I found things wrong with my eyes, my hair, my weight. I was taller then my older sister and I associated that with BIGGER, FATTER, and wrong. I have spent most of my life over the “NORMAL” weight for my height. I grew up seeing actresses and thought they were what you were supposed to look like.

It has taken me years to learn how to love my body. I am still a work in progress and will catch myself negatively talking about my body.

2004 to 2007 I was my heaviest and I only took pictures with my family. I was suffering from postpartum depression. I was scared. I was trying to hide from my x-husband. (I share that on Beyond Abuse Essential Healing) My weight was the way I protected myself and hid.

Family photo 2004
Family Photo 2006

Between 2005 and 2007 I was on fertility drugs and gained even more weight. I didn’t like how I looked or felt. We decided to stop fertility treatments. I decided to take my life back so I could play with my girls and do the things I love like camping and sports.

Team Strong Enough 2010
Most of Team Strong Enough After the Half Marathon

2009 Family PhotoIn 2007 I started making better choices with my food and working out daily. Then I started running, like really running. I started with 5Ks. In 2008, we were blessed with a son and I continued on my healthy path. Once he was born I got back in to running. I got back to doing 5Ks and then work up to doing a Half marathon. My first was as part of team Strong Enough with the Coleman Family and Friends in April of 2010. Ragnar 2010I aslo participated in the Wasatch Back Ragnar Relay Race. This was definitely the healthiest time in my life.

Salt Lake Half Marathon 2011In April of 2011, I ran my second half marathon and even reached my goal for my finishing time. But I also tore the meniscus in both knees. This lead to a lot of pain and surgery. The knee surgeries made it impossible to ever run again. I never fully recovered physically or emotionally.

The weight packed back on and so did all of the emotional weight from my past.

In 2017, I had enough. I was tired of hurting and not enjoying life. After seeing 3 surgeons I finally found one that would do the knee replacements that I needed. And so my health journey began again with my first replacement done in July of 2018 and my second in September of 2018.

I also took a seminar that reminded me of who I am. It gave me skills to add to the knowledge I have as an Essential Oil Coach. I have taken this knowledge to start Loving my body and myself. I know thank my body daily. I talk to my body. I support my body physically and emotionally with essential oils.

This is where I am at today. Half way between my heaviest and my healthiest. I am grateful for my body and I love it!!!

I am passionate about helping others learn those same techniques. I want teach and mentor as many people as I can to love their bodies and their self. Follow me on Faceboook for upcoming training.



Thoughts Create Reality

Thoughts are a powerful thing. We can either let our thoughts run on audio pilot or we can conscientiously choose our thoughts.

I have experienced verbal, sexual, emotional, and physical abuse during my life. If I am not careful I get lost in patterns of negative thoughts and despair. One thing leads to another and I forget that I get to choose my thoughts.

During this journey of self discovery I have found there is a cycle I go through. One of Discovery then either Releasing or Excepting that discovery which then leads to Creation. If I am running on audio pilot I go into survival mode and everything seems hard. Sometimes my thoughts spiral out of control and I go deeper and deeper in to despair. My depression and anxiety seem to be overpowering.

This cycle is not easy and at times we will meet resistance and pain. We can even be triggered as we move through the cycle that may cause us to stop practicing and moving through the cycle. Prayer, meditation, essential oils, and therapy assist us through the process. I have discovered that healing is a daily practice, not a destination. We need to love ourselves and be patient with the process.daily-practice

2006 I was introduced to The Secret a film and a book presented by Rhonda Byrne.  The Secret shares amazing real life stories of regular people who have changed their lives in profound ways by applying “The Secret” or the laws of the Universe.  The secret or law is that whatever we focus on is what shows up in our life. In other words our thoughts become our reality. Mike Dooley said, “Thought’s become things, choose them wisely.”

14064210_10154600394759750_8856672435977252204_nI have to chose my thoughts and words carefully. I asking myself the following questions without figuring them out:

  1. Who Am I?
  2. What do I want to create?
  3. What do I enjoy doing?
  4. What Am I choosing by my thoughts and actions?

Through this practice thoughts  will create the reality. They will change the way we view life and the world. We get to choose these thoughts each and everyday. Each day that we choose to put what we are learning into practice we will just get better at creating our reality with more precision.

We need to remember to take time for ourselves care and be patient as we fine tune the practice these skills. As we choose our thoughts carefully and hold on to the ones that bring us joy they will serve our higher purpose.

I declare I am the possibility of love, light, clarity, and joy. I am abundant, grateful, powerful and healed. I choose to play big, create a life I love, and I hold the space for others to do the same.

Everyone has his or her own journey. We each have our own triggers and interpretations of life. My intent is to add in the healing process not cause anxiety or pain. Our experience may be similar but they are each unique. Even though many people could have been at the same event each person experiences and remembers those events through our own eyes and will recall the event differently. My blogs will be from my perspective of my life. I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother and friend. I am not a Doctor, Counselor or Therapist. I believe it is important to work with Doctors, Counselors and Therapist along with Essential Oils, Energy Healing and spirituality to find health, healing and balance.