When I was growing up I thought I was crazy when I heard the voice in my head. It was not until I started my journey of self discovery by taking personal development courses around 2006 that I learned differently. Each courses seemed to referred to it differently; “the sub-conscience”, “It”, “I AM” or some other name. The one that has resonated with me is I AM.
There are many time in my life I have felt that I AM – The Wizard of OZ, a con or fraud. There is the I AM I perceive, the I AM I hear in my head, the I AM I am currently being, the I AM I want to be, and the I AM others perceive no to be.
So many times I felt a lone in this battle with I AM. Once I learned about it and started recognizing it for what it was, I started practicing I AM Affirmation. Life started shifting to the I AM I want to be, but I still felt like it was a fraud. How could it be that with more understanding there also came more frustration and confusion? It is all about perception. Some of the problem is our perception of self is often is over critical.
Take a look at it this way through the imagery created by Analytic Lessons from Behind the Curtain, The Wizard of Oz — Perception vs Reality
“Lessons on Perceptions
The theme of MGM’s adaptation is persistently evident. From a young girl’s perceptions of a black and white life in rural Kansas, springs a technicolored world of gold and emeralds. Dorothy’s adventures in the Land of Oz are full of symbols and metaphor as she follows the yellow brick road in her quest to return home.
Along the way, the stranded Dorothy meets powerless munchkins, a brainless scarecrow, a heartless woodsman, and a cowardly lion in her quest to find an all-powerful wizard. At least those are the perceptions.
By the end of the tale, the wizard is proven a con, the lion brave, and the scarecrow merely in need of a diploma. The genius of the wizard proves to be his deep understanding that perceptions and realities are often quite different.
In the final scenes, once again perception is questioned. When Dorothy fails to return with the wizard over the rainbow, her initial misery is alleviated when the good witch reveals that Dorothy’s ruby slippers have always given her the power to return whenever she wanted. A few clicks of the heal and our young heroine returns to Kansas to learn it was all just a dream… so fitting.”
What we see is our Reality, is actually our perception of our reality. It is often easier to see where we lack that where we are thriving. We judge our worse against someone else best not knowing their struggles or even seeing the complete picture.
The reality for me is I hit a bump in the road, the I AM I hear in my head often takes back over. I start listen to the voice I had heard growing up. That of not being wanted, not being worthy and on and on and on. I stopped taking care of myself, I stopped the practices I had learn to create the life I wanted. I became the man behind the curtain. Pretending everything was still okay, while I was abusing myself physically and emotionally.
Each time I would return to the practices that where in love, light, possibility, and creation I was happy and once again making progress toward who I want to become. But each time a trial hit, I would start traditional counseling, which would help for a while, but then the fall seemed to be harder to overcome.
Therefore there is the I AM I perceive, the I AM I hear in my head, the I AM I am currently being, the I AM I want to be, and the I AM others perceive me to be. So therefore, I AM the Wizard of Oz or the man behind the curtain. I am in a constant battle with who I AM. I choose to continue to learn, discover, and become the I AM I desire to be.
I have had many resources that have assisted me in my discovery of the I AM. I know that it is a continual process of learning, discovery, and growth. I also think that understanding our own I AM this may be one of the greatest understanding we can seek in this life.
I have discovered that prayer, mediation, affirmations, and energy work are key to me healing and self-discovery. But I know that each of us needs to find our own path to health, healing, and self-discovery. I am grateful for my journey and the different friends, classes, and books that have taught me along the way.
Today and hopefully everyday moving forward I will choose to do the work, continue to discover, grow and declare, “I AM growth, wisdom, love, light, and joy. I AM the possibility of all that has been, is, and is to come.”
Our mind and bodies are incredibly powerful, and we each have our own journey to self discovery and knowledge. My you find that path that best supports you in discovering your I AM!
Here are some of the YouTube Videos and Audiobooks that I refer to often to support my learning. As well as the resources I used for this post.