I never loved my body. I was always finding something wrong with it. I found things wrong with my eyes, my hair, my weight. I was taller then my older sister and I associated that with BIGGER, FATTER, and wrong. I have spent most of my life over the “NORMAL” weight for my height. I grew up seeing actresses and thought they were what you were supposed to look like.
It has taken me years to learn how to love my body. I am still a work in progress and will catch myself negatively talking about my body.
2004 to 2007 I was my heaviest and I only took pictures with my family. I was suffering from postpartum depression. I was scared. I was trying to hide from my x-husband. (I share that on Beyond Abuse Essential Healing) My weight was the way I protected myself and hid.
Between 2005 and 2007 I was on fertility drugs and gained even more weight. I didn’t like how I looked or felt. We decided to stop fertility treatments. I decided to take my life back so I could play with my girls and do the things I love like camping and sports.
In 2007 I started making better choices with my food and working out daily. Then I started running, like really running. I started with 5Ks. In 2008, we were blessed with a son and I continued on my healthy path. Once he was born I got back in to running. I got back to doing 5Ks and then work up to doing a Half marathon. My first was as part of team Strong Enough with the Coleman Family and Friends in April of 2010. I aslo participated in the Wasatch Back Ragnar Relay Race. This was definitely the healthiest time in my life.
In April of 2011, I ran my second half marathon and even reached my goal for my finishing time. But I also tore the meniscus in both knees. This lead to a lot of pain and surgery. The knee surgeries made it impossible to ever run again. I never fully recovered physically or emotionally.
The weight packed back on and so did all of the emotional weight from my past.
In 2017, I had enough. I was tired of hurting and not enjoying life. After seeing 3 surgeons I finally found one that would do the knee replacements that I needed. And so my health journey began again with my first replacement done in July of 2018 and my second in September of 2018.
I also took a seminar that reminded me of who I am. It gave me skills to add to the knowledge I have as an Essential Oil Coach. I have taken this knowledge to start Loving my body and myself. I know thank my body daily. I talk to my body. I support my body physically and emotionally with essential oils.
This is where I am at today. Half way between my heaviest and my healthiest. I am grateful for my body and I love it!!!
I am passionate about helping others learn those same techniques. I want teach and mentor as many people as I can to love their bodies and their self. Follow me on Faceboook for upcoming training.